Monday, November 21, 2011

Someday I will fly free.
Free as a bird.
Free from the hauntings of my past.
Free from the secrets I have kept.

I used to think freedom only came with silence.
Now I realize I can be free,
And thrive.
She looked back on her life and realized,
Everything that happened had only made her much stronger...
I am a Survivor.


When you grazed my body with your boorish hands,
My mind went racing.
Where should I go? What should I do?
Instead I lay there, motionless.
Like a smashed fly, but not quite dead yet.
Nothing I could do.
Just hoping it would end.

I left without saying a word.
Pretend it never happened.
Don’t say anything to anybody.
Then maybe I would forget.
I didn’t forget, I will never forget.

How it made me feel.
Jaded.
Worthless.
Lifeless.
I didn’t want this to happen.
Nobody does.
Why me?

Don’t talk about it.
Then it didn’t happen.
But it did.
One year passed.
Finally I told them.
They told others.

The others said maybe I deserved it.
Maybe he didn’t mean to.
Maybe I shouldn’t have walked into the room with him.
Maybe I wanted it. Maybe I’m MAKING IT UP.
Maybe it wasn’t his fault.
It was his fault. I am not to blame.
I am a survivor, NOT a victim.